Looking Through a Child’s Eyes
I am often in awe of how God has blessed children with eyes that are so pure and innocent.
Yesterday morning, I sat down on the couch to show my 4 and 6 year old the pictures from my recent trip to the Philippines as a Compassion Blogger. I found it difficult to look at the pictures without becoming emotional.
I’ve experienced a lot of different emotions this week since returning.
Simple, I know, but I can’t get over how clean it is everywhere around me, how huge the houses are and how green the lawns. Even the dumpy house down the road has been suddenly transformed into a well-maintained mansion in my eyes. Who knew I lived in a magazine? I’m overwhelmed by undeserved grace.
There have been stronger emotions, too, like anger and annoyance at the all-consuming focus on our local Vancouver hockey team that has made it to the Stanley Cup playoffs (aren’t there about a million things more important than hockey, I seethed?). Sadness at the children that we have left behind, knowing their daily plights, and for the many beautiful children that still stand on the other side of the fence (why can’t we do more and save them all?).
Exhaustion mingled with relief at being back in my own comfortable home while I recovered from sickness and jet lag, and then guilt mixed in as I washed more loads of laundry than I thought possible in my lovely machines, and attempted to get my ungrateful children to eat their nutritious dinners (don’t they get it that some children only get one meal of plain rice per day if they’re lucky?).
I know, these are the raw emotions of re-entry and they are common for those who are trying to reconcile all that they’ve seen and heard and smelled and experienced in a place where poverty reigns supreme. They will fade over time, and I will find a new normal that somehow fits in with the ways that the Lord is molding and changing me.
But on the heels of anger and sadness and guilt, I am seeing the first vestiges of fresh hopefulness in me.
You see, when my daughter looked at those pictures, she didn’t see the poverty. She didn’t smell the stench. She didn’t feel the hunger gnawing at empty bellies. She didn’t experience the fear. She didn’t shed tears for all that she has, and all that they lack.
Through beautiful childlike eyes, she saw beauty. And hope. And joy.
She pointed out to me what a fun toy that child has. And how cute that little boy is. And how that family’s house has a nice chair in it. And what a cool game we got to play with those kids at the project. And how the church loves Jesus. And how much she would have liked to hear them sing for us.
I see the poverty, and she sees the beauty.
I think she should have gone on the trip instead of me.
The Lord is speaking gently to my confused heart, and using my daughter to help me remember all the good that He is doing there. Like Project Joseph, that is feeding hungry families in flood areas while requiring that they learn to be more self sustaining through growing their own food. Or young moms being taught what good nutrition is and how to ensure that the water they give to their little ones is clean and safe, to prevent them from getting common illnesses that spread in unsanitary conditions. Or little girls grown up into amazing young women, getting university degrees and following the dreams that the Lord has put on their heart to help others like themselves.
I am slowly coming around to a place that is infinitely more positive than where I left off. I am seeing that I need to let that anger and sadness and guilt flow into prayers and compassion and ultimately, into purpose and action.
At the end of our trip, Shaun told us the story of how Compassion International was founded. A young man was in Korea in the early 1950’s and witnessed the orphans that would sleep in little heaps in doorways, and in the mornings be scattered by guards who went up and down the streets. He saw two young children, obviously a nuisance to the guards, tossed carelessly into the back of a truck to get them out of the way. The friend that he was with asked him this question, “Now that you know, what will you do?” Everett Swanson responded by founding Compassion International, which now helps over 1,000,000 children worldwide.
This is the question weighing on me as I return to my life here. Now that I know, what will I do?
Now that you know, what will you do?
For our family, it includes sponsoring more children. Sharing the news about the good that Compassion is doing around the world. Continuing to pursue our own adoption one day. And I’m not sure what else, but I know that the Lord will show us in good time.
And I don’t know what it will look like for you either, but I do have an amazing opportunity for one of you… during our trip, we found out that at one of the local projects we visited (the one that required rubber boots and rafts), there is one lone child awaiting sponsorship. I had been trying to get permission to bring attention to this particular child during our trip, but it didn’t work out until just yesterday.
Mark Jofer Villaranda has been waiting for sponsorship for a long time, and as he is 15 and has been waiting he is classified as a “high priority”. He is available for immediate sponsorship. I met the workers at the project that he belongs to, and they are phenomenal. His community is one of great need, with much flooding and hunger and difficulty, but you could be the one to throw him a ladder. Will someone please reach out and sponsor him in particular?
(Important: I do have to note that if you are not prepared to sponsor him immediately, please don’t click on the link. It will pull him temporarily out of the system for 30 minutes, making it impossible for anyone else to sponsor him. But if you’re ready to do it, then by all means please go ahead!)
Amazing- he’s been sponsored already, in the 12 minutes that this post has been live! Thank you!
There are also many others out there waiting, and you can choose to sponsor one of them!
And thank you…
I have been blown away by the kind of readers that I have this past week and a half. Seriously.
Readers who would quickly jump up to offer to help take care of a little girl in need of a surgery (and to update you on Diane– we are in process to get the permission we need to make her surgery happen!). Readers who have told me countless times how you already sponsor children with Compassion, or how you have decided for the first time (or the 4th time!) this past week to sponsor a child.
You all blow me away. I’m so honored that I could go on this trip and share it with you. I promise I won’t keep talking about my trip and Compassion forever (well, maybe just a teensy bit…) but I’m so grateful that I had the opportunity to do this and to partner together with you and your families to lift children out of poverty in Jesus’ name.
I am moved beyond words. I have followed along with you and the other bloggers as you have traveled. I am challenged to take my blogging to another level, to make it count for more. This week we will be starting to sponsor a few children in our family. I can start there, with a simple act, and see where that leads us.
I am a mess and God is speaking to me. I was a missionary kid, and what was started as a child is being reborn and revived in me. Thank you for documenting and being a willing vessel to go, so many of us could experience it with you.
I know how you feel. I’ve been to a few other countries were most every one lives in small shacks made with cardboard or random pieces of wood or sticks. My husband who is in the military has been deployed several times and has seen just what happens to kids who were born on the other side of the world. It’s sad. And difficult for him to adjust every time he comes back. It will make you thankful for any kind of food you get to eat, even if it’s processed dead food….it’s food. And although there are 5 of us and we live in a 2 bedroom apartment we know we are blessed. Living in anything bigger seems like a waste. A waste of resources that others so desperately need. My husband makes enough for us to be just under the poverty line (here in the US) but we know that we are privileged and rich in the eyes of others and in our own eyes.
I thought I’d share this with you, I’d shared it with Shaun while you were all overseas.
Yours was the 3rd blogger trip I’ve followed. God uses these trips so amazingly! Thank you for saying YES to go, to be the eyes & ears of so many who can’t go or who would otherwise not have the opportunity to be part of this amazing ministry of Compassion. Thank you for putting emotions into words.
Blessings on the journey~
@Deb, She is so beautiful. What an amazing story. I love how God brought you to just the right girl. Thank you for saying yes. You brought tears to my eyes!
Thank you so much for sharing you experience. We currently sponsor a child through Rafiki Foundation and we decided to sponsor a boy through Compassion that had been waiting for more than 6 months for a sponsor and I am so glad that we made that decision. I pray that God will continue to use people like you to reach out to others so that they may understand the plight of these children around the world!
@Laine, That’s so awesome. I just get all teary every time another reader tells me that they’ve sponsored a child. You’re making my morning! 🙂
Stephanie, we read and prayed for all of you the week you were in the Philippines. We already sponsor Ucok from Indonesia, we correspond with Bethlhem in Ethiopia. but our hearts were pulled for the Philippines. We started looking at the children on teh site. Our oldest daughter (Mandi) spent 6 wks in Kenya, met Maureen the LDP graduate that is launching the Mercy House with Kristen Welch. Mandi sponsors Neema from Tanzania. My 13 yr old Alyssa loves to read and receive letters from our Compassion children. SO, I let her sponsor a child from the Philippines. She is so thrilled, so happy…. her little girl’s name is Jazzy Rain. She picked her last night. http://www.momof6blessings.blogspot.com
thank you…. again and again for allowing us to peek in… to see and read the stories. PLEASE keep sharing…..
Wow – We sponsor a Neema in Tanzania too! She is in Morogoro. We can only afford the one child. But we know it’s better than none.
@Larissa (in Australia), Never feel bad about “only” sponsoring one. One is significant! We can only do what God has given us the resources to do, right? Thank you for sponsoring at all. 🙂
@Teena, Oh, that is so wonderful, thanks for telling me. And I love her name… Jazzy Rain. How cool is that? 🙂
Stephanie, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. Your posts throughout your trip have broken my heart and sent me to my knees in prayer about what the Lord would have us do to help these precious children.
I have thought of this prayer by David Murray often throughout the past weeks and thought it might minister to your heart as well:
“And all this leads me again to worship at the feet of the Lord Jesus who voluntarily came from his perfect peaceful home to this world of trouble and turmoil; who actively sought out sad people to sympathize with; who “bore our griefs and carried our sorrows”; “a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.”
Behold the Man with unlimited sympathy and empathy. Behold his huge and unlimited heart. Behold his tender and sensitive love!
I come to Him, weary and heavy laden, saying: “Lord I cannot cope with all these sorrows. But you can. I have no more capacity, but you have. My sympathy reserves are empty, but yours are ever full. My heart is narrow and limited, but yours is immeasurably wide. Please take these sorrows and extend your sympathy. And more than that, add your power to your pity; add your hand to your heart. Feel what I cannot feel. And do what I cannot do.”
@Andrea, Beautiful prayer, thank you.
Thanks to you and all the compassion bloggers for sharing your trip with us.
” I promise I won’t keep talking about my trip and Compassion forever (well, maybe just a teensy bit…) but I’m so grateful that I had the opportunity to do this and to partner together with you and your families to lift children out of poverty in Jesus’ name.”
I hope you (and the other members of your adventure) keep blogging and reminding us about this. My heart has been moved so many times as I read about your days and the children you’ve met.
I’m not there yet… I haven’t found the extra money to sponsor a child. But I’m working on it. One addiction of soda to dispose of and I’ll have the money I need! I’m trying hard so thank you for posting and reminding us because I don’t know about anyone else, but I want the reminder. Don’t let me forget.
And again, thanks for sharing this with us.
@Penny, Ok, Penny, I won’t let you forget. Thanks for holding me to it. 🙂
And you can definitely kick that soda addiction. I’m rooting for you!
I’m glad you’re sharing all this with us. At this point, I would like to sponsor a child, but my husband said he won’t be able to look at it until the fall when we re-do our budget based on what happens with his job situation (he is laid off with his work ending soon). We will have to see what comes up for him and then figure out our finances again then. I am going to bring it up again when he re-does our budget with me.
@Nola, I think that’s totally reasonable. I’m sorry that you’re dealing with an unsteady work situation. That’s tough. I’ll be praying that God will abundantly provide for your own family’s needs, and that you’ll have extra to share as God leads you. Nice to hear from you- feels like it’s been a while! 🙂
@Stephanie @ Keeper of the Home, Thank you Stephanie. We do hope to be able to give a lot away as God leads us. Sometimes I find it frustrating to not be able to give as much as I wish, other times I struggle with giving at all…but I know that God wants us to give abundantly. We are doing okay with the job thing for my husband. It may or may not mean big change but I am at peace about it overall.
Yes I haven’t been commenting/reading as much but I am still around here and there. Thank you for your ministry here with the blogging for compassion. I think its so wonderful you were able to use your writing talents to explain to others about this need.
Aren’t children wonderful for pointing out the good?
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